This is a decision I would rather not Make ...

 

I'm sitting here thinking about a decision I prefer absolutely nothing to do. My boy, Kuva – a 100 pounds chocolate lab is in the other room … he does not do so well tonight ....

I wrote about him in november on his 11th birthday-he's been with me since he was almost 8 weeks old. He has always been joyfilled ... the last few days he has some challenges--today we brought him to the vet. .. she finds this congestion heart failure .....to cut a long story short-diagnosis and prognosis are not good.

I personally don't give a hoot about all the "osis" what I care about is-how he feel?

Last night was he have sympathy for breath and a bit antsy … I laid on the floor with him ... I told him how special he was in my life. I told him how he didn't have to stay here-he didn't have to suffer – at any time could he closes his eyes and that I would be OK ...Well I say this with tears running down my face ...

But I'll be OK ... my real concern is about him. I would not suffer that he is far too much of a lover is to suffer.

Last night and tonight I told Kuva – "Gale is there waiting for you" ...Gale that fully worshipped him ... Gale and I saw him when he is old ...just a few days. We picked him out of the nest and attended several times before we could bring him home. Gale made her transition in January 2003.

And Kuva …"Marria is there waiting for you." My dear, dear friend Marria – they worshiped absolutely Kuva! When I came I would say that they always wanted to know "are you Kuva bring?"I used to tell her I was sure if he could drive they would just have him about! And my cats Kissena & Mary-they would curl up in him and sleep with him. He was always so gentle with them ...They are also on the other hand, will greet him ....

When the vet and I spoke today-they felt as if he were somewhat commented on the medication, but it wasn't a great response.They spoke to me about quality of life and about making a decision in a few days ....Of course I knew what they say ... and I told her "I already have the decision-I won't let him suffer"

I did take him home tonight-I feel that I need him to tell me when it is the right time ... and of course I will continue to offer him the possibility to "close your eyes and go ...."

I would definitely prefer if he just let it go ...

I am a great believer in what Dr. Kevorkian did ...If I want to go and need help to achieve that – why can't I get help?

But what about our pets? while I think they tend to be more connected with the universe than we are ...We have indeed domesticated them-taught them with people rely on us to make their decisions for them ...And now I'm wanting to Kuva would have its own decision ….